The inner workings of Krystal

I am so sleep deprived it’s not even funny, so bear with me if this post veers off course a lota little. I mean let’s face it, I veer even with plenty of sleep, so this post has the potential to get real confusing. I have been so busy. I mean, Spiderman busy. Running around all across Austin saving lives and trying to squeeze in time for workouts and homework. There seriously aren’t enough hours in a day. The saddest part is, it’s only going to get busier. What’s that saying….it gets worse before it gets better, or something? Yeah, that’s my life right now. It’s gonna get REAL bad. I mean, it’s a good kind of busy, but man I’m not ready. My volleyball league started, and our first game is Sunday night. I’m super pumped and ready to play, but it’s just another thing to add to the list of things I shouldn’t have gotten myself into. I stretch myself wayyyy too thin, and then proceed to bitch about it. Funny how that works. Then I have some things going on in November, then Thanksgiving which is SURE to add a few pounds to my hefty behind. All the while I’ve got work, school, wedding planning, friends, family, Bryan…whew. Obviously I’m not the only person in the world who has a busy schedule. It’s just that….how do I word this………..I’m a lazy broad. I like to sleep. A lot. With this new schedule, I am lucky to get 7 hours a night, and it’s usually considerably less than that. Frankly, it’s really starting to piss me off. It’s all my bed’s fault, really. Damn it to hell for being so comfortable! :]

 

On the weight loss front, not much to report. I have decided to try a new route. I am not going to be counting points for two whole weeks. Some of you may be thinking…”she’s crazy, that’s two weeks that she could possibly not lose or even…. *gasp*…. gain weight. While this is part true, I am not going to just go all out and stuff my face with pizza and brownies(my two biggest weaknesses.) I am going to consciously try to watch what I eat, and get in a sufficient amount of exercise. It might just come down to, this is a time in my life where I can’t focus 100% on weight loss like I would like to, and I can’t figure out if I’m ok with that or not. I’m still debating. I’ll get back to you on that. Overall, I’m just plain tired. Dead tired. Tired like I could sleep for two whole days and think nothing of it. Maybe even 3 or 7 days. Who knows? Anyway, at the end of these two weeks, I am going to see if I lost, gained, or stayed the same. If I lose, I will continue down this road. If I gained, I will go back to counting points. If I stayed the same, well….I don’t know what I’ll do if I stay the same. Boo. I hate being fat. Makes me want to kick stuff.

On a more positive, albeit snooze-fest, note, school is going really well. Hell, it better be considering the amount of sleep I lose just to try to keep up. I have a 97 in my COM140 class and a 98 in my GEN105 class. I am honestly really proud of myself and I just hope I can keep this momentum up because I have a tendency to kick ass in the beginning of things, and lose steam REAL quick. It’s what I do. I’m hoping I don’t “pull a Krystal” though and tough it out. It’s definitely going to be worth it in the end.

Bryan and I are fantastic. I am so in love, and it’s like every day I love him more than the last. I don’t know how that happens, but it does. We are still in wedding planning mode, obviously, and we are just trying to keep it all together. The stresses of life get to us every now and then, but I think that happens to everyone. He’s amazing, I am so lucky to have him. I love you baby! ;]

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Weekly Weigh-in

I weighed myself this morning, and I am down to 238.2! Yay me. I switched my weigh in days back to Mondays because I quickly realized weighing in on Fridays was not going to be beneficial to me. A new week begins, and I’m excited and nervous all at the same time. Wish me luck. 🙂

Weight: 238.2

Daily points allowance: 30

Weekly weigh in

Weight: 244

 

I lost 0 pounds. In fact, I gained 4.  Surprise, surprise. I am struggling. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I need them.

Happy Birthday to…ME!!

Yes, that’s right. Today I turned 24 years old! I am getting older, and I don’t like it one bit. I know, I know, to most of y’all, that’s young, blah blah blah. It’s not young to me!! I haven’t accomplished a lot of things that I wanted to have done by now. Namely, being done with college and having some sort of degree to show for it. I am going back to school finally, but it’s still hard to realize that all my friends are done with school and getting these amazing jobs while I make 9 bucks an hour…not cool. Eh…I guess that’s a whole seperate issue that I really don’t feel like getting into right now.

 

Bryan made this birthday really special. He got me a laptop for school, a dozen pink roses, a book that I had been wanting, and a card that sings to me! It has really been awesome, and I don’t know what I would do without him. I really am blessed to have him! I got lots of birthday wishes and all in all, today has just been wonderful. The eating however…not so hot. Being that it’s my birthday, I have kinda been going a lil crazy with what I have been eating today. Oopsies! I know it’s not good, and I’m sure I have ruined this week, but I promise to try and get back on track tomorrow! 🙂 Hope everyone is doing well! I’m off to rest and relax! 🙂

Operation: Weight Loss!

Blah. I hate the fact that I keep stopping and starting. I don’t think it’s been very helpful. I had a breakdown last night (as usual) but this one left me feeling very empty and sad. I can’t live like this anymore. I’m getting to the point where desperation is setting in. And I feel like that is pathetic…that, or I’m just way too hard on myself. Sometimes I feel so hopeless, and I hate it. I hate that I can’t seem to take control of my life and my weight. I can sit and talk for days to people about what it takes to lose weight, because I have done it before, but yet I can’t do it now?? I don’t understand…

 

Anyway, so as I said in my last post, I’m starting over, this time with my weigh in days on Fridays. We will have to see if my theory pans out, and see if the weight loss happens this way. Wish me luck.

 

Starting weight: 240

Daily points: 31

Executive Decision

I have decided, after much thought and insight from others, that I am now going to change my weigh in days to Fridays. This doesn’t mean that I will go crazy tomorrow, but I just feel that I will have better success weighing in on Fridays because then I will have the weekend to do whatever I want with my WPA and I seem to be more disciplined during the week, than on the weekend. That’s my story, and I’m sticking to it! 🙂 I will check back in on Friday!!

Tell me it’s ok…PLEASE!

Today has been a bad bad day. I did pretty well early on in the day, but then I get a phone call from my grandma informing me that she’s taking Bryan and I to dinner. At CHILI’S! Long story short, I ate more than I should have, and couldn’t even begin to try and guess how many points I consumed. What should I do? Let it go, and start fresh tomorrow? Throw it back up(TOTALLY kidding)? Cry myself to sleep(Only half kidding!)?  I need you now, my loyal readers. I feel like a terrible person, but I just couldn’t help myself. I hope this doesn’t set me back in a huge way…Blah. Tomorrow is another day, and I just have to remember that. I’m trying….

Week 1 results!!

Weight: 238 down from the start weight of 243! Lost 5 pounds baybe!!

New daily points total: 30

 

This was EXACTLY what I needed as motivation. 5 pounds seems like a lot, but I think it was just because I LITERALLY transformed my diet overnight, and I know that from now on, I probably won’t see numbers that high, but that’s ok. I expect that. My goal for this week is to incorporate a little more exercise, but we will see considering I have school to worry about too. I am so proud of myself for getting through that first week without going halfway and saying, “oh well, I guess this week is ruined because I had a cookie, so let me just cram my face with more cookies, and start fresh next week.” I made it through!

 

Today, well….today wasn’t so hot. I went 6 points over my daily points, which leaves me with 29 weekly points. I guess that’s not terrible, and I do still have time to workout tonight. All I know is that I still need you guys support! Keep it coming!! 🙂

Halfway through the first week update!

I figured I should post an update about my progress so far this week. What’s today……? Wednesday, that’s right. Well, Monday went great. I ate very well, and went to the gym and did 25 minutes of cardio. I know that doesn’t sound like much, but when you basically NEVER exercise, that’s like a million years worth of exercise. For a fat girl anyway…. Tuesday was ok. I ate pretty well, but I didn’t do my workout because I let other things get in the way. Blah blah blah… Today was another good day. It was supposed to be my “off” day, but since I missed yesterday, I went ahead and went for a walk/run out in my neighborhood for about 15 minutes. I know, again, that doesn’t sound like much, but trust me. My big ‘ol behind was having a hard time keeping up with how fast I thought I could run in my mind. HA!

So, right now I am at a pretty good place. I still have 18 weekly points left, plus six activity points, which gives me a grand total of 24! I’m sitting pretty if I do say so myself. Tomorrow is another work out day, so we’ll see. I started going back to school on the 24th of this month (yay me!) so things might get a little hectic for me. I am going to try my hardest to get my workouts in. I know it’s not going to be easy, but it’s necessary. This is an investment in my life, and I would say it’s pretty much worth it, no matter what! I want to be able to live my life with Bryan, and have children and raise them and be able to run and play with them. I know that the shape I’m in right now is going to prevent that from happening. Not cool. Not at all.

“The PLAN”

So here it is. The “plan.” I talked with Bryan about it, and I’m pretty sure I’m ready to take this on..maybe…we’ll see. Gotta love my indecisiveness! 🙂

 

Three days a week- Cardio.

Two days a week- Strength training.

Continue Weight Watchers.

 

I’m thinking something along the lines of…

 

Monday- Cardio

Tuesday- Strength training

Wednesday- off day

Thursday- Cardio

Friday- Strength training

Saturday- off day

Sunday- Cardio

 

How does that sound? Any words of wisdom? All I know is I need to get my big butt moving. ASAP! I’m not kidding, I am literally outgrowing my clothes at an alarming rate. I tried on every pair of jeans I own this morning, and only one pair fit, and even that pair was tight!! It’s depressing. It makes me want to eat a pint of ice cream. Funny how that works…

So this is it, my last ditch effort. I am going to give it all I have, and if this doesn’t work out, I honestly don’t know what I’ll do. I just know that something needs to change, and maybe by giving myself some structure, or at least attempting to have structure, it will help me. Bah, who am I kidding? As soon as I get off of here, I’ll be cramming a cupcake down my throat. Attractive, huh? I know, I know. I can’t help it! 🙂

Kristi, if you are out there, I think you should try to follow this schedule with me. What do you think? What would work better for you??

 

Oh and on a seperate note, I start school tomorrow! YAY ME!!! 🙂 Oh, and Bryan got me a laptop for my birthday. I  just love that kid…don’t know what I would do without him! Good night all!

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